i'm so pissed right now..
i know there's no going to sleep tonight
i feel like all the shit you normally experience over the whole summer has settled on my in a merely a few days.
-i got my letter back from the naval academy.. not even being considered becasue my test scores on the ACT/SAT weren't competative enough. Big blow to my pride, because my mom got excited when she saw the letter in the mail, dying to know the contents.
-my class ring broke. not the whole thing.. just the stone. and i know i didn't hit it on anything or anything like that.. i think it was the temperature here.. and my walking everywhere in the heat and showering and working and doing everything with it one didn't help any.
-i lost 50 dollars.. like. i know for a fact that i didn't lose it at home.. i tore the house apart. the last time i remember holding it in my hand was at the bus stop waiting.. cause i put it in my back pack. i withdrew it to buy me and timmy munchies and movies when he came over.. which didn't happen cause his mommy cancelled on me. so i just had 50 bucks to do nothing with. then when i told my mom she asked if my older sister had taken it.. cause she's jobless and still has sticky fingers.. and i was all.. maybe i lost it at work.. but i KNOW it wasn't there.. casue i have a pretty honest crew.. if they find anything, they're gonna turn it in.
-homelia, this girl at my work. she calles me nana.. i'm her best friend.. whatever. she stole my military ball picture outta my reading book, because she wanted to remember me forever. PISSED as hell, cause that was the only military ball pic i own.. the one with me, my mom and my stepdad..
-my boss's wife is being a total prick because she thought that me and another girl from work were talking about her while we were on the headsets.. totaly jumping to the x-file factor.. it's about her and she doesn't like it.. so my boss is all up my frikkin ass, when in reality.. his wife is insecure and an evesdropper.. because we were really talking about steve and pranking him.. cause it would just be hilarious..
-and the icing on the cake.
i've been working hard on my summer reading for about three weeks.. anmost halfway thru pride and prejudice.. i read it everywhere.. at the bus stop, at work on my break.. when i'm bored.. whenever. well, today, i was working on it when my mom dropped me off at work earlier.. and i was taking notes and stuff, like i always do.. and then when i clocked in, i put it in my boss's office. when i go to get it after work, about an hour and a half ago. book is gone. so are my notes. i look everywhere in the office, and around back drive thru.. and all over the store, places i might have put it.. under everything.. on top of all the machines.. everywhere.. no book. no notes. PISSED OFF AS HELL. cause i've workied so hard on it so long.. and now i have nothing to show for it, and i have to start it all over again. and i still have to read 1984 before school starts.. and that is a headache.. and i really strongly believe that homie took it.. just cause she prolly thought it was funny..
so life couldn't really truly suck anymore than it already does.. i'm mad cause everything is happening all fast and all at once.. and all my hard work is down the pisser.. and school starts in a few weeks, i have to take senior pics, my wife is gonna be home in a few days, my best friend's birthday is just around the corver.. literally, i miss all my friends from camp.. friends in general.. i'm stressed about leaving home and going to colege and finding money to pay for it, what i'm gonna do for the rest of my life.. and i hardcore miss my dad.. even tho he was the worst thing to happen to my life... but i still think that he's my dad.. ya know? i deserve to have him in my life..
and i think i'm cracking under all the pressure..
*sigh*
just need to get everything off my chest and organize my thoughts..
if you actually read thru all of this you deserve the bestest friend award and a giant cookie.. <3
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kendrick.. x from 7th grade.. great guy.. we talk way more now than we did when we were actually dating..
jared.. -ive known him five years.. super cool bi guy.. more like my bro than a bf.. 
karina.. the muscular one in the back.. yeah.. 
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